Last Saturday, April 14, we were in the doctor's clinic for AJ's monthly check up when I received a text message. It was from my friend Kim, who was less than 20 weeks pregnant. "We lost our baby last Thursday, Please pray for us.....Please tell the others for me". I thought.. is this some kind of a joke? But who would joke about this? I called her up and confirmed it. I hate it when my friends let me announce the bad news (my best friend from college also asked me to inform our friends about the death of her father) to all our friends, its like I'm the messenger of bad news.
Anyway, It was weird because when I spoke to her, she seemed okay even if she lost her baby 2 days ago. And thought that she have accepted the reality of losing her first born. I felt, I was more affected of her loss than she did. But when I read her post, I cried. I was wronged and I felt so ashamed how I could have even thought that she didn't care.
In my previous post, I was so excited about about her having a baby and was so excited on the baby shower and baby Q&As, but now its like a blur, a dream. She posted an eulogy for her baby angel. Again, I was crying while reading her eulogy and even more while I was typing my comment.
I'm crying for all the unborn children who were lost by people who will be good parents and will love them unconditionally. And I'm crying for all the unborn children who were aborted by their parents. There are a lot of good people I know who are still trying and waiting to have their own kids. So, treasure your own. They are beautiful gifts from God.
Anyway, It was weird because when I spoke to her, she seemed okay even if she lost her baby 2 days ago. And thought that she have accepted the reality of losing her first born. I felt, I was more affected of her loss than she did. But when I read her post, I cried. I was wronged and I felt so ashamed how I could have even thought that she didn't care.
In my previous post, I was so excited about about her having a baby and was so excited on the baby shower and baby Q&As, but now its like a blur, a dream. She posted an eulogy for her baby angel. Again, I was crying while reading her eulogy and even more while I was typing my comment.
I'm crying for all the unborn children who were lost by people who will be good parents and will love them unconditionally. And I'm crying for all the unborn children who were aborted by their parents. There are a lot of good people I know who are still trying and waiting to have their own kids. So, treasure your own. They are beautiful gifts from God.
5 comments:
That is so sad. Probably I can't really feel something like that yet since I am not yet a parent but I guess when I become one...
aw i feel so bad for your friend! it's always such a tragic loss when parents lose a child (unborn or otherwise). i hope she finds peace in her heart.
chase: yeah, I think my single friends also feels the same why you do.
kat: I know.. its what I hope for too.
That is so hard, especially when it's your first time. I lost my third pregnancy at seven weeks, and I still think about it to this day. It's strange when I go to the doctor and they ask how many children do you have, I want to say 4 instead of 3.
I hope you friend finds peace and comfort.
Jmom: sorry 2 hear about ur 3rd pregnancy. she's on d road 2 recovery n acceptance. You heal but never forget.
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