I have to admit that I don't keep many friends. I choose those that I can trust. I have my bestest friends from highschool but I rarely see both of them due to our geographical situation ( one migrated to California and the other recently moved to Hong Kong- all of us are married with little boys ). I have those chosen few in college but we rarely see each other due to busy schedules. Though we have an annual Christmas gathering which became a tradition. This is usually during or near my birthday. Then I have those other few whom I had the pleasure of meeting at work and spent more than 8 hours a day with them for years.. and thus became close. Some of them have already moved to another company but I'm glad that we still keep in touch.
I think I still have more single friends than married ones. And when I see some of my single friends who frequently see their friends for out of town trips, road trips, dinner/lunch out, it makes me realize that I used to be like them. Always ready to go when their friends says that they want to go here and there. May it be an out of town, or out of the country or just a night out. And I have to admit that I miss it. Not having any obligation to go home immediately afterwork. Planning a trip over the weekend without hesitation. I miss that too. I miss being single.
It's not that I regret being married and having a baby. There's nothing can be compared to the experience and happiness when you are bearing a child and giving life to another being and marrying the man who is your bestfriend and the person who completes you. I'd never exchange this to any trips abroad or trips to the beautiful beaches of this country.
I just miss the perks of being young and single -- the impulsive booking of flight, the exhilaration it brings when the moment is just a few days away (the count down!). The shopping of wardrobe for the trip, planning of the itinerary. The worry-free feeling of the whole event.
For now, I enjoy and (as corny as it may sound) treasure, the lunch-outs, coffee klatch and quick meet ups with my friends for this is the only time I can spend time with them without feeling guilty. I know they understand that my priorities are now different. They know that I can no longer be a last minute-impulsive-travel-companion that I used to be. It has to be planned out carefully with months and months of lead time and has to be discussed with hubby and bottom line is, it has to be a mutual decision.
..because now I'm no longer single, I have a partner.
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