Officially Missing You

Honestly, I do not know what to say in this entry... I'm speechless... I'm numbed... I'm empty. I stayed late in the office, trying to keep myself busy until 10pm. I don't want to go home yet to an empty apartment. Had a late dinner with my officemate, Erben, which was nice because it kept my mind preoccupied. While waiting for Adrian to pick me up, I put on my ipod and maxed the volume...again keeping myself preoccupied.When I got in the car, I was in my chatty mood about how my day went (my meetings in Alabang, my new 16M target, etc..). But when I got inside the house,,, it was awfully quiet. I didn't hear M O M M Y! being shouted at the top of his lungs. No wide pearly white smile greeted me as I enter our bedroom. He's not here. I won't be able to brush his hair out of his forehead, won't see his smile when he open his eyes and catch me staring at him I won't be able to hold his little hand while we sleep...separation anxiety is so overwhelming.. it just pains me.

He is in Cavite. He is just 2 hour drive away from us. But not being with him every single day just breaks my heart. I do have a choice. Quit my job and take care of him. I would in a heartbeat if I could but with our situation right now,,,that's not an option. I have to make this sacrifice. I'm doing this for him. But why do I feel so guilty?

Guilt free shopping

Motherhood has changed my shopping habits. When I was single, I would shop for clothes, shoes, bags and jewelries whenever my heart desires it.. even on impulse.. mall-wide sale or not, I never hesitated swiping my reliable credit card. Becky Bloomwood was my hero. hahaha!

But now, whenever I go to malls, I always end up buying something for AJ, may it be clothes, shoes or toys I don't hesitate buying it. But when I see something that I want these days... I amazed myself with how much self control I have. I always access if I really need this (right) now, can I survive without it? This question is always answered by a big YES. So I usually walk out the store empty handed, no bulky paper bags.

This is the reason why I am excited to be invited to weddings. Because I have 3 good reasons to have a guilt free shopping's spree.

1. I have to buy a new dress. Especially if the guests are the same people who have attended the previous weddings that I went to.

2. My shoes should match my dress. I usually buy black stiletto or high heeled shoes to be practical so I can even wear it to the office.

3. Accessories should match. The bag that holds the press powder, lipstick, cellphone and digicam should be appropriate and coordinated to your dress. And thou shall not forget the jewelries (fancy or real) that will compliment the total ensemble.

And so I am happy to have swiped my little red credit card at VNC as I have finally found the shoes that I'll be wearing on Saturday for Janess and Varian's wedding on the hill. Their theme is Bohemian!!! And the motif are different shades of Lilac and Green. After 4 days of searching for the perfect pair for me... Erben and I saw this green wedge shoes that is so comfy and lightweight. i just LUVEEET! Now I just have to find the puuurrrfect accessories for my v-neck sleeveless tunic top and dress pants and I'm ready to go!

Here comes 2009

I'll be offline for the New Year, so I'm greeting all of you in advance. Though the year of the Ox does not start until January 26,2009, It has been said that YELLOW is the lucky color of 2009 (thus my greetings in yellow.hehe!)

Hope the new year will bring us all good health, more money, lower sales targets and less stress!!!

Here's an overview of the year to come.. this is a forecast only and can still change :) make the most out of it and don't dwell on the negative. click here for more details.

Yearly Horoscope Forecast for 2009
Rat Average	Ox Average	Tiger Bad	Rabbit Average	Dragon Bad	Snake Good
Horse Bad	Ram Bad	Monkey Average	Rooster Good	Dog Average	Pig Average

Left Overs

Last week my colleague Kim Chua (who is an entrepreneur by heart - he's Chinese obviously) gave everyone in the office a small jar of Bagoong for Christmas. So Original and it's so Kim because it says" Merry Christmas at Manigong Bagoong Taon" for orders call: Kim Chua 0917xxxxxxx. I'll give it to him to always see opportunities in anything...

So last weekend, I thought of using this bagoong gift (which some office mates said that it was masarap - even more delicious that the one from barrio fiesta). I tried my hands (for the first time!) on a favorite Thai cuisine, Shrimp Paste Rice or simply, Bagoong Rice. I have my steamed rice, bagoong, eggs and green mangoes ready... Then I saw some left overs from breakfast (omelet) and lunch ( pork adobo) so I decide to use them as well.

Here's my Recipe for Shrimp Paste Rice (with pork adobo and omelet leftovers)

Cook scrambled eggs and heat the left over omelet, cut lengthy and set aside.

Saute minced garlic and onion in a pre-heated pan with a tablespoon of oil (Olive). Add 2 tablespoon of bagoong and then add the pork adobo left over (just the pork don't add the sauce). Stir until pork is covered with bagoong. Add steamed rice and stir fry until all rice are covered up with bagoong.

Serve with strips of green mangoes and topped with scrambled eggs/omelet.

Enjoy!

Top 10 Men in my Life

Magazines and Networks left and right have been announcing their choices for the Sexiest Men in the World, Most Powerful Women in world, Most Beautiful Women etc. Well, I also do have my own list too...

Here are the Top 10 Men in My Life:

10. Dingdong Dantes – what can I say… he is 2 places away from David Beckham on E!’s Sexiest Men in the world… need I say more.






9. Derek Ramsey – dark tall and handsome..and yummy.







8. George Eads – I don’t know, its love at first sight I guess. He’s the reason why I’m sticking it out with CSI, now that Grissom is on his way out. I cried when his character was buried alive in one of the season finale of the show.. it felt so real.








7. Patrick Dempsey - oh the husband material…hahaha! he ages gracefully and he’s my mc-dreamy!








6. Ed Westwick – I loathe his character in Gossip Girl, but then after that ep13 in Season 2, I can’t seem to get enough of him… his Brit! Maybe that’s why.




5. Robert Pattinson – Love him as Cedric Digory, I fantasize him as Edward Cullen. Talented. Yes! Good Looks. Check! Yelling girls (me included). Absolutely!








4. Wentworth Miller – I'm just magnetized by his intelligence and good looks. ehem, Princeton!








3. Kimi Raikkonen – his boyish and incredible eyes drawn me to him.. I watched F1 because of him, if he retires early on any of the race, I leave the couch and do something else. He is the only reason why I watch it anyway. But before him, there was Ayrton Senna, then he died.






2. Andre Agassi - my teen age first love..even with his long hair in the late 1980’s he has captured my attention. I still have this Sports Illustrated issue (March 13, 1995). I still wish to meet him in person and have him sign this ish so I can finally have this framed. No I am not a Tennis fan.. I am an Andre Kirk Agassi fan. Now you know why my son is named Andre.






1. Adrian – He is all of the Above. But then they have the money and the fame.. but they don't have me...now who's the luckiest man on earth? haha!